Lyrical Musings of the Day: Through Glass and Zzyzx Rd. by Stone Sour

For some time now I've been trying to figure out what kind of new feature I could possibly put in place of the now deceased For Your Listening Pleasure feature of mine, and nothing unfortunately has ever come up.....  But earlier today while I was listening to my iPod admiring the lyrical writing abilities of some of my favorite bands, I thought up an idea that maybe a good way to replace it would be to share some of these lyrics with all you readers out there.  So as such, the new feature in place of the old will now be what I have decided to call "Lyrical Musings of the Day," in which I will post the lyrics to a song that either reflects my current mood/thoughts, are lyrics to a song I re-discovered I loved or are new songs I have discovered I love in the first place, or are just simply songs in which I think "man, that's a really awesomely well written song!"

So without further adu, today I will post the lyrics to two Stone Sour songs in particular, mostly just because they both stand out to me right now and quite frankly, I really couldn't choose just one, heh heh. ^_^'

Through Glass

I'm looking at you through the glass...
Don't know how much time has passed
Oh, god it feels like forever
But no one ever tells you that forever
Feels like home sitting all alone inside your head

How do you feel? That is the question
But I forget.. you don't expect an easy answer
When something like a soul becomes
Initialized and folded up like paper dolls and little notes
You can't expect a bit of hope
So while you're outside looking in
Describing what you see
Remember what you're staring at is me

Cause I'm looking at you through the glass...
Don't know how much time has passed
All I know is that it feels like forever
When no one ever tells you that forever
Feels like home, sitting all alone inside your head

How much is real? So much to question
An epidemic of the mannequins
Contaminating everything
When thought came from the heart
It never did right from the start
Just listen to the noises
(Null and void instead of voices)
Before you tell yourself
It's just a different scene
Remember it's just different from what you've seen

I'm looking at you through the glass...
Don't know how much time has passed
And all I know is that it feels like forever
When no one ever tells you that forever
Feels like home, sitting all alone inside your head

And it's the starrrssss
The sttarrrsss
That shine for you
And it's the starrrssss
The sttarrrsss
That lie to you.. yeah-ah

I'm looking at you through the glass...
Don't know how much time has passed
Oh, god it feels like forever
But no one ever tells you that forever
Feels like home, sitting all alone inside your head

'Cause I'm looking at you through the glass...
Don't know how much time has passed
All I know is that it feels like forever
But no one ever tells you that forever
Feels like home, sitting all alone inside your heaaaaddd

And it's the starrrssss
The sttarrrsss
That shine for you.. yeah-ah
And it's the starrrssss
The sttarrrsss
That lie to you.. yeah-ah

And it's the starrrssss
The sttarrrsss
That shine for you.. yeah-ah
And it's the starrrssss
The sttarrrsss
That lie to you.. yeah-ah yeah

Ohhhoh when the starrs
Ohhh oh when the starrrrs that liieee 

Zzyzx Rd.

I don't know how else to put this
It's taken me so long to do this
I'm falling asleep and I can't see straight
My muscles feel like a melee
My body's curled in a U-shape
I put on my best but I'm still afraid

Propped up by lies and promises
Saving my place as life forgets
Maybe its time I saw the world

I'm only here for a while
But patience is not my style
And I'm so tired that I gotta go

What am I supposed to hide now?
What am I suppose to do?
Did you really think I wouldn't see this through

Tell me I should stick around for you
Tell me I could have it all
I'm still too tired to care and I gotta go

I get to go home in one week
But I leaving home in three weeks
They throw me a bone just to pick me dry

I'm following suit and directions
I crawl up inside for protection
I'm told what to do and I don't know why

I'm over existing in limbo
I'm over the myths and placebos
I don't really mind if I just fade away

I'm ready to live with my family
I'm ready to die in obscurity
'Cause I'm so tired that I gotta go

Where am I supposed to hide now?
What am I suppose to do?
You still don't think I'm going see this through

Tell me I'm a part of history
Tell me I can have it all
I'm still to tired to care and I gotta go

Concerning My Last Post: Spring Break is Not That Bad.

As many of you already know based off of my last blog post, I really was not anticipating my spring break this past week to be particularly exciting.  I mean it never really is, but considering how much life has sucked over the past few months or so I especially thought it to be so this year.  I mean sure, there's plenty of anime and movies to watch out there, plenty of manga/books to read, plenty of video games to play, ect.  Heaven knows I have a gargantuan backlog of such things I just need the time to get through sometime.  But what I've come to find is that when you're going through tough times like this, it's never a good idea to keep yourself all cooped up inside your house all alone like that.  It's always best to try to get out of the house and actually be with people; being able to laugh with them, being able to have fun with them, and most of all, being able to talk with them about things and allowing them to make you feel better.


But who do you go to when one of the main sources of the problem is when it feels like you've lost a massive percentage of people who were once ones who would do that for you?  I guess that's where good friends and family you still do have come in, and I also guess that that's where you are shown the people who really are your true friends and the ones who really do love and care about you.  That's where I'm glad I have both a wonderful blood related family as well as my non-blood related family of people like Peter and Aaron and their respective spouses/soon to be spouses.  Probably about 90% of my spring break was spent with them, with about 5% of it with blood relations and the other 5% with what little time was actually given to me to enjoy all that time to sleep and use the computer I had been given, heh heh.  And the best part about it is with Peter's fiancée down in California the whole week and him feeling miserable and lonely with everyone else seeming to be out of town that week as well, he pretty much needed me every bit as much as I needed him.  Which makes it all the more fulfilling.  I can't help but think the lord had a hand in that one, preventing me from going to the NCAA Tournament with the pep band so I could help take that charge.  And with as much as he's been there for me throughout my life, I was more than happy to have that opportunity.


Basically the break started off (I consider Saturday to be apart of it) about like how I was expecting it to be: dull and boring, ready to kill over because of all the staleness and stagnatism, wondering how the crap I could possibly keep on doing this for a whole week.  I kept myself busy that night with Gangs of New York, which had just barley debuted on AMC, and a delicious Carls Jr. dinner.  Sunday night I ended up watching Pulp Fiction twice (which was on this afternoon as well it would seem), which to my amazement seemed to be on all weekend.  Which probably would have made me happy anyways, seeing as how that's actually become one of my all time favorite movies.  But things didn't really get going until Monday night.  That had also been a regular spring break day as usual, all the way up until a massive birthday bash we traditionally have for all the March birthdays in our family, which strangely enough are all within at least a few days of each other, heh heh.  It came complete even with a good 'ol fashioned game of Quelfs, which I haven't played in a good long while.  Absolutely a riot, that game is! XD


Tuesday night is what my cousin Megan and her fiancee Walter have been working on regularly making our anime and game night with us plus a few of their friends as well, which is always fun.  Coming back from Salt Lake to their home in Ogden, they nabbed me here in Bountiful on the way sometime in the early afternoon, so of course I spent pretty much the whole day with them.  They bought me a Mountain Dew slurpee on the way up (they know me so well ^_^) and we went exploring at good 'ol Cosco up there in Ogden.  I showed them a few episodes of Texhnolyze like I had promised I would do after I was shocked to find a copy of it at the Ogden Hastings (best store EVER!) while hanging out with them there a few weeks earlier, and needless to say they were quite weirded out by it, heh heh. :P Then after that we started gaming, of course.


Wednesday was where things REALLY started to get crazy.  Pretty much spent the whole day with Peter, Aaron and Sam exploring the Gateway, as well as free Planetarium and free children's museum after we had been disappointed we couldn't go to the zoo that day for free.  I gott a nice pair of shades to replace my old crappy ones while we were at it too.  Then we went over to Aaron's parents' house for some cake and ice cream (it was his dad's birthday apparently) and rented a whole bunch of movies.  We ended up watching Monsters vs. Aliens that night, which actually ended up being a lot funnier then I was expecting it to be.  


Thursday was actually kind of a disappointing day, seeing as how I ended up not having enough money to take up Linda's big laser tagging invite after Wednesday's craziness, and Alex, and old high school friend of mine, had plans to invite me to go play G.U.R.P.S. with his gaming buddies that fell under.  Which I think might have been an attempt to get that hang out session with that girl who wanted to hang out with me despite already being taken that never happened.... But Peter and I pretty much spent the whole day (amazingly.... o_O) up at his house playing Magic, which we actually pretty much played for hours on end pretty much every day I hung out with him this week, heh heh. ^_^' Which was good actually, because neither of us had really done any Magic playing since before Gregg left for the army, so we needed some good Magic playing/deck building sessions like that.Friday consisted of more Magic, but then latter that day we got Aaron and Sam up at his house and we watched more of our rented movies and ate Papa Murphy's.  


Saturday we originally made plans to go up to Logan once Amy got back from her big California trip to spend the day up there with her and do some gaming with the Star Wars campaign we started up with her, but much like pretty much every day the gang got together this week, we were so preoccupied with doing other fun things we pretty much failed to do any gaming at all, heh heh. ^_^' While we were up there we payed a visit to the Gosner Cheese shop, which is the best place anywhere to get Cheese.  They had lots of sample tables where we got to try out a lot of the kinds of cheese/cheese spreads they had there, and I instantly became addicted. Sooooo goooooood.  I did also have enough money to buy some things of my own there, so I took home a package of smoked swiss cheese and some swiss and oninon cheese spread, which me and my whole family pretty much finished right off this afternoon, heh heh.  I will see tomorrow night when we make hamburgers for dinner how the smoked swiss is.  Then we ate at a Hawaiian restaurant up there, which was pretty good.  Never had Hawaiian food before, so it was an interesting experience.  Pretty much the rest of the afternoon leading all the way up with dinner consisted of us finding too many entertaining things on the TV up there in Amy's college housing apartment, so like I said, we never got around to doing any gaming. ;) Then we went to the Indian restaurant for dinner, which had some great food, but the belly dancing performance that ended up breaking up there (we went there for that primarily, Amy being the big belly dancing guru she is and all) ended up making me feel uncomfortable, only really because I was sitting at the end of the table so I ended up getting half naked belly dancers all up in my face....... >.> Everyone else seemed to get a kick out of it though, and part of it was their fault (Amy knows some of the people who were dancing there that night so she decided it would be funny to sick one of them on me..... >.> ) so I decided to be a good sport about it and not get angry at them.  I actually really think my uncomfortably being at that place had more to do with the fact that as well as the belly dancers in my face plus the whole dancing environment that has always reminded me of why I never attended any dances or stomps in high school (they had a thing at the end of the performance where anyone who wanted could get up and go out and dance, even if poorly, along with the dancers and people, including Peter and the gang, were trying to get me to go out and dance, even though I had absolutely no desire to.... ) REALLY put me in an environment in which I did not want to be in.  But other than that, it was good times.


It is kind of funny how I came from fearing I wouldn't have enough to do to having too much to do, heh heh.  In some ways I do actually kind of wish Peter and the gang had spared me more free time to myself thinking back on it, but at the same time I have no desire to complain.  I ended up having good times with people who I know care about me at a time when both them and I needed it, and I guess in the end that's all that really matters.  I guess in some ways I just wish there were more people out there who cared about me that much is all.

Staleness and Stagnantism abounds.

Normally this would be the post where I go on and on about how excited I am that we get a whole week off of school all next week, with caps and exclamation points galore.  But as nice as a good old fashion break from all the stresses of school always is no matter what, this time around I kind of find myself not particularly looking forward to it all that much, like I normally do.

As of before just this past Wednesday I thought I was going to have plenty to be exited for to spend my spring break doing.  But unfortunately fate as it would seem has decided to give me the nice ol' middle finger yet again as the Weber State men's basketball team fails us all, if but ever so slightly, but ever so slightly enough that there will be no free band trip to the NCAA tournament.  Add onto that the fact that in what seems to be such a short amount of time I've come from having what seemed to be a ton of really great, wonderful friends on such a scale that it seemed like everyone and their dog wanted to do something with me over winter break to public enemy number one with probably more than half of those same people - and a tiny pinch of typical single person disappointment when a girl you talked to on the bus earlier this afternoon really, really hit it off with you, exchanged cell phone numbers with you and everything, texted you for hours on edge when you both got home, even went as far as to make plans to hang out with you over the break only to let you know that they are already taken - and you have yourself a nice old recipe for death by boredom.

Oh well, at least that aforementioned girl gave me at least something to do over the break anyways.  And who knows, maybe Peter and the gang will come up with something.