As many of you already know based off of my last blog post, I really was not anticipating my spring break this past week to be particularly exciting. I mean it never really is, but considering how much life has sucked over the past few months or so I especially thought it to be so this year. I mean sure, there's plenty of anime and movies to watch out there, plenty of manga/books to read, plenty of video games to play, ect. Heaven knows I have a gargantuan backlog of such things I just need the time to get through sometime. But what I've come to find is that when you're going through tough times like this, it's never a good idea to keep yourself all cooped up inside your house all alone like that. It's always best to try to get out of the house and actually be with people; being able to laugh with them, being able to have fun with them, and most of all, being able to talk with them about things and allowing them to make you feel better.
But who do you go to when one of the main sources of the problem is when it feels like you've lost a massive percentage of people who were once ones who would do that for you? I guess that's where good friends and family you still do have come in, and I also guess that that's where you are shown the people who really are your true friends and the ones who really do love and care about you. That's where I'm glad I have both a wonderful blood related family as well as my non-blood related family of people like Peter and Aaron and their respective spouses/soon to be spouses. Probably about 90% of my spring break was spent with them, with about 5% of it with blood relations and the other 5% with what little time was actually given to me to enjoy all that time to sleep and use the computer I had been given, heh heh. And the best part about it is with Peter's fiancée down in California the whole week and him feeling miserable and lonely with everyone else seeming to be out of town that week as well, he pretty much needed me every bit as much as I needed him. Which makes it all the more fulfilling. I can't help but think the lord had a hand in that one, preventing me from going to the NCAA Tournament with the pep band so I could help take that charge. And with as much as he's been there for me throughout my life, I was more than happy to have that opportunity.
Basically the break started off (I consider Saturday to be apart of it) about like how I was expecting it to be: dull and boring, ready to kill over because of all the staleness and stagnatism, wondering how the crap I could possibly keep on doing this for a whole week. I kept myself busy that night with Gangs of New York, which had just barley debuted on AMC, and a delicious Carls Jr. dinner. Sunday night I ended up watching Pulp Fiction twice (which was on this afternoon as well it would seem), which to my amazement seemed to be on all weekend. Which probably would have made me happy anyways, seeing as how that's actually become one of my all time favorite movies. But things didn't really get going until Monday night. That had also been a regular spring break day as usual, all the way up until a massive birthday bash we traditionally have for all the March birthdays in our family, which strangely enough are all within at least a few days of each other, heh heh. It came complete even with a good 'ol fashioned game of Quelfs, which I haven't played in a good long while. Absolutely a riot, that game is! XD
Tuesday night is what my cousin Megan and her fiancee Walter have been working on regularly making our anime and game night with us plus a few of their friends as well, which is always fun. Coming back from Salt Lake to their home in Ogden, they nabbed me here in Bountiful on the way sometime in the early afternoon, so of course I spent pretty much the whole day with them. They bought me a Mountain Dew slurpee on the way up (they know me so well ^_^) and we went exploring at good 'ol Cosco up there in Ogden. I showed them a few episodes of Texhnolyze like I had promised I would do after I was shocked to find a copy of it at the Ogden Hastings (best store EVER!) while hanging out with them there a few weeks earlier, and needless to say they were quite weirded out by it, heh heh. :P Then after that we started gaming, of course.
Wednesday was where things REALLY started to get crazy. Pretty much spent the whole day with Peter, Aaron and Sam exploring the Gateway, as well as free Planetarium and free children's museum after we had been disappointed we couldn't go to the zoo that day for free. I gott a nice pair of shades to replace my old crappy ones while we were at it too. Then we went over to Aaron's parents' house for some cake and ice cream (it was his dad's birthday apparently) and rented a whole bunch of movies. We ended up watching Monsters vs. Aliens that night, which actually ended up being a lot funnier then I was expecting it to be.
Thursday was actually kind of a disappointing day, seeing as how I ended up not having enough money to take up Linda's big laser tagging invite after Wednesday's craziness, and Alex, and old high school friend of mine, had plans to invite me to go play G.U.R.P.S. with his gaming buddies that fell under. Which I think might have been an attempt to get that hang out session with that girl who wanted to hang out with me despite already being taken that never happened.... But Peter and I pretty much spent the whole day (amazingly.... o_O) up at his house playing Magic, which we actually pretty much played for hours on end pretty much every day I hung out with him this week, heh heh. ^_^' Which was good actually, because neither of us had really done any Magic playing since before Gregg left for the army, so we needed some good Magic playing/deck building sessions like that.Friday consisted of more Magic, but then latter that day we got Aaron and Sam up at his house and we watched more of our rented movies and ate Papa Murphy's.
Saturday we originally made plans to go up to Logan once Amy got back from her big California trip to spend the day up there with her and do some gaming with the Star Wars campaign we started up with her, but much like pretty much every day the gang got together this week, we were so preoccupied with doing other fun things we pretty much failed to do any gaming at all, heh heh. ^_^' While we were up there we payed a visit to the Gosner Cheese shop, which is the best place anywhere to get Cheese. They had lots of sample tables where we got to try out a lot of the kinds of cheese/cheese spreads they had there, and I instantly became addicted. Sooooo goooooood. I did also have enough money to buy some things of my own there, so I took home a package of smoked swiss cheese and some swiss and oninon cheese spread, which me and my whole family pretty much finished right off this afternoon, heh heh. I will see tomorrow night when we make hamburgers for dinner how the smoked swiss is. Then we ate at a Hawaiian restaurant up there, which was pretty good. Never had Hawaiian food before, so it was an interesting experience. Pretty much the rest of the afternoon leading all the way up with dinner consisted of us finding too many entertaining things on the TV up there in Amy's college housing apartment, so like I said, we never got around to doing any gaming. ;) Then we went to the Indian restaurant for dinner, which had some great food, but the belly dancing performance that ended up breaking up there (we went there for that primarily, Amy being the big belly dancing guru she is and all) ended up making me feel uncomfortable, only really because I was sitting at the end of the table so I ended up getting half naked belly dancers all up in my face....... >.> Everyone else seemed to get a kick out of it though, and part of it was their fault (Amy knows some of the people who were dancing there that night so she decided it would be funny to sick one of them on me..... >.> ) so I decided to be a good sport about it and not get angry at them. I actually really think my uncomfortably being at that place had more to do with the fact that as well as the belly dancers in my face plus the whole dancing environment that has always reminded me of why I never attended any dances or stomps in high school (they had a thing at the end of the performance where anyone who wanted could get up and go out and dance, even if poorly, along with the dancers and people, including Peter and the gang, were trying to get me to go out and dance, even though I had absolutely no desire to.... ) REALLY put me in an environment in which I did not want to be in. But other than that, it was good times.
It is kind of funny how I came from fearing I wouldn't have enough to do to having too much to do, heh heh. In some ways I do actually kind of wish Peter and the gang had spared me more free time to myself thinking back on it, but at the same time I have no desire to complain. I ended up having good times with people who I know care about me at a time when both them and I needed it, and I guess in the end that's all that really matters. I guess in some ways I just wish there were more people out there who cared about me that much is all.
Sunday, March 21, 2010
Friday, March 12, 2010
Staleness and Stagnantism abounds.
Normally this would be the post where I go on and on about how excited I am that we get a whole week off of school all next week, with caps and exclamation points galore. But as nice as a good old fashion break from all the stresses of school always is no matter what, this time around I kind of find myself not particularly looking forward to it all that much, like I normally do.
As of before just this past Wednesday I thought I was going to have plenty to be exited for to spend my spring break doing. But unfortunately fate as it would seem has decided to give me the nice ol' middle finger yet again as the Weber State men's basketball team fails us all, if but ever so slightly, but ever so slightly enough that there will be no free band trip to the NCAA tournament. Add onto that the fact that in what seems to be such a short amount of time I've come from having what seemed to be a ton of really great, wonderful friends on such a scale that it seemed like everyone and their dog wanted to do something with me over winter break to public enemy number one with probably more than half of those same people - and a tiny pinch of typical single person disappointment when a girl you talked to on the bus earlier this afternoon really, really hit it off with you, exchanged cell phone numbers with you and everything, texted you for hours on edge when you both got home, even went as far as to make plans to hang out with you over the break only to let you know that they are already taken - and you have yourself a nice old recipe for death by boredom.
Oh well, at least that aforementioned girl gave me at least something to do over the break anyways. And who knows, maybe Peter and the gang will come up with something.
As of before just this past Wednesday I thought I was going to have plenty to be exited for to spend my spring break doing. But unfortunately fate as it would seem has decided to give me the nice ol' middle finger yet again as the Weber State men's basketball team fails us all, if but ever so slightly, but ever so slightly enough that there will be no free band trip to the NCAA tournament. Add onto that the fact that in what seems to be such a short amount of time I've come from having what seemed to be a ton of really great, wonderful friends on such a scale that it seemed like everyone and their dog wanted to do something with me over winter break to public enemy number one with probably more than half of those same people - and a tiny pinch of typical single person disappointment when a girl you talked to on the bus earlier this afternoon really, really hit it off with you, exchanged cell phone numbers with you and everything, texted you for hours on edge when you both got home, even went as far as to make plans to hang out with you over the break only to let you know that they are already taken - and you have yourself a nice old recipe for death by boredom.
Oh well, at least that aforementioned girl gave me at least something to do over the break anyways. And who knows, maybe Peter and the gang will come up with something.
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
BroEl's overly stressful and in some ways quite emo rant......
Gal, it's been since way back in December when I made my last post here, hasn't it? Well I've had plenty to write about, that's for sure. Problem is actually ever getting around to writing any of it, which with as much has occupied both time and mind as of late, has been extremely difficult to do. Heh.... But after reading the most recent post on my friends blog about her current stresses in life, I kind of felt the need to give myself my own release of some of the things that have been overwhelming me over the last little while or so.
Well I was originally going to come in back at the beginning of the semester and give my overview of how the break went and what I'm looking forward to academically, socially and personally going into the new year/semester. But those things do sort of loosely tie into this little rant of mine, so I guess in a way you could say this is pretty much it then, heh. Basically coming into this new year/semester, things were looking very, very up for me after having had fallen on some pretty dark times for a while. I had finally put a lot of my old feelings behind me that had been troubling me since back in the summer and accepted things for what they were currently, even if they weren't what I wanted. Despite that fact, I finally felt ready to move on with life and give more serious thought to exploring other possibilities with other feelings I felt like I could've possibly had.
That's where the confusion begins though. Also coming into the year/semester, one of those possibilities was to not have feelings for anyone in particular at all, as inspired to me by my good friend Bryson. It was something I was seriously considering giving a try, but the problem was going into the year/semester I still felt like there was a possibility that I could've already had some feelings for a couple of certain specific very wonderful and amazing young ladies that was now ready to come fourth since I had finally put those old feelings behind me. So the conflictions stood as thusly: which one of those magnificent young ladies do I want to be with the most, or do I even want to have feelings for anyone right now? As it would seem, none of my old conflictions from the past year/semester had gone away, all but just that one particular feeling that I had finally put behind me, but that was it. It felt like the weight of the world was lifted off my shoulders, but the confusion had just only begun.....
And as a result, I took far too long to act. I guess I can't put too much blame on Teagan for setting her brothers up with them, she did what she thought was best for the people she cares about most in life, both her brothers and her non-blood related sisters. She saw the opportunity and she took it, and she was only able to take it because I let it happen. And I really should be happy because she's happy, because her brothers (two very good, very close friends of mine by the way) are happy, and most of all, because those incredibly fine young women are happy. But what about me? I must say it's been one heck of an incredibly bittersweet period of time for me lately. Everyone just seems so happy, and I'm happy that they're happy, but I'm miserable because of it, and that right there is not so happy..... I can't help but sometimes be angry at Teagan and her brothers, and even in some cases the other girls as well for it all. But that's just being overly emotional I guess. I do feel really terrible about it, and I wish things didn't have to be this way so that I couldn't feel this way, and that in turn they couldn't feel that way about me. I guess you can't really blame me for getting that way though, but the reality of it all is that it isn't any of their faults, and they don't deserve to have this anger directed towards them. If anyone deserves to have anyone's brunt of negative feelings thrown at him, it should be me. And without a doubt, if there's anyone in the world who has had by and far the most anger tossed upon them by me, it is most assuredly myself and myself alone.
Which also brings me to my next point: just how much longer is this going to keep happening to me? Why does it seem like every single time I've had reason to believe, it always ends this way? I've probably been told more than any other guy in life that "you're a really nice guy Nate, you're really great, but you're just not the right one for me" or "I really like you a lot, I just don't feel ready to get in a serious relationship with anyone right now." And the worst of that latter is that both times I've been told that, interest has been shown by those particular girls in other guys really not too much longer after them having said that. Which begs the question, am I really just that pathetic? Is every guy out there better for every girl out there than I am? What is it exactly that women just don't seem to like about me? Or am I just the most unlucky, most missfortunate guy in existence and the good lord just doesn't want me to be to be with anyone? Or better yet, why do I fail so epically at life? Why did god make me so stupid and why can't I ever do anything right? I mean you don't just meet people as marvelous as Teagan, Julie and Marie every day. I honestly don't think I ever will meet anyone quite like any of them ever again. Most certainly not anyone as perfect for me as Marie is, that's for sure. I don't know why it is, but for some reason I feel more capable, more extroverted and just all around more compatible with her than I do anyone else I've ever met. I don't think I've ever hit it off with anyone quite like I have with Marie. And I'm not entirely sure that I ever will. And if this is my best and my best apparently isn't good enough, that there's still a guy out there who's better than I am nonetheless, then really, how pathetic am I that I still epically fail nonetheless?
Of course this isn't the only issue I'm being overloaded with right now. Though quite obviously, it is the one I think about the most, that's for sure. Other issues include me taking Calc 1 from an instructor who teaches it in a way that I swear is impossible to understand I thing that's going on, not to mention he is no help at all in giving us adaquite enough assignments to actually practice the math. He has no schedule for it on the syllabus, he has no actual assigned problems, he just says "just do all the odd ones." And it's been very, very difficult for me to practice this stuff via homework as a result. And now I am failing the class pretty badly, and am not sure if I can pull at least a D- or better out of it. Which is very bad for my financial aid standing. Failing the class would be about the same for it as dropping it for a W, only it wouldn't hurt my GPA if I did the latter. And I know I have a very willing tutor to help me with this stuff (she knows who she is ;) ) as she promised earlier in the semester and I am very greatful for that. I just haven't been very willing to ask her to help me is all. Partially out of stubbornness, but also out of the fact that, to tell you the honest truth, I just kind of have this personal issue with actual friends helping me out with homework. It's nothing against anyone or anything, it's just something I kind of have a hard time feeling adaquite with it is all.
Then there's the fact that, as it would seem, Dr. Root feels like he has enough confidence in my capabilities that he thinks I can handle lead trombone in symphonic band. At first that was actually one of the things I felt like was going my way and that I was looking forward to with much anticipation. And most times, I have to say, it is kinda cool and I enjoy it quite a bit. Other times I struggle enough with it and feel burdened enough by it that I wonder why on earth he put me up here instead of Linda or Matt, who are both way better than I am anyways. That solo on Rhapsody in Blue I wish sometimes he'd just pass on to one of those two instead of make me have to deal with it. It's not a hard solo, it's just that he wants it done in a very specific way, and I'm not sure if I can do it the way he wants me to. He's even trying to get me into his office so he can work with me on it, and its not something I particularly want to deal with doing. I guess at least I don't have to run sectionals, which is a plus. But other than that, I just don't know sometimes.......
I guess in the end, all I can really do about any of this is let life run it's natural course, even if it doesn't go the way I want it to. Which is a very, incredibly hard thing to do when you're as concerned with and worried about it all as I am. Mostly just because I want nothing more than for it to turn out the way I want it too. And I honestly can't help but feel like a massive failure at life who can't do anything right if it doesn't. But in the end, it really, honestly is all you can do about it. It's not going to be very easy to do, and it will take a very, very long time. Stuff like this just doesn't go away overnight, especially those said particular feelings, whether they be of love for a certain particular incredible individual or of failure, regret, anger, and lack of appreciation for the self. But, whatever will be will be I guess.
Well I was originally going to come in back at the beginning of the semester and give my overview of how the break went and what I'm looking forward to academically, socially and personally going into the new year/semester. But those things do sort of loosely tie into this little rant of mine, so I guess in a way you could say this is pretty much it then, heh. Basically coming into this new year/semester, things were looking very, very up for me after having had fallen on some pretty dark times for a while. I had finally put a lot of my old feelings behind me that had been troubling me since back in the summer and accepted things for what they were currently, even if they weren't what I wanted. Despite that fact, I finally felt ready to move on with life and give more serious thought to exploring other possibilities with other feelings I felt like I could've possibly had.
That's where the confusion begins though. Also coming into the year/semester, one of those possibilities was to not have feelings for anyone in particular at all, as inspired to me by my good friend Bryson. It was something I was seriously considering giving a try, but the problem was going into the year/semester I still felt like there was a possibility that I could've already had some feelings for a couple of certain specific very wonderful and amazing young ladies that was now ready to come fourth since I had finally put those old feelings behind me. So the conflictions stood as thusly: which one of those magnificent young ladies do I want to be with the most, or do I even want to have feelings for anyone right now? As it would seem, none of my old conflictions from the past year/semester had gone away, all but just that one particular feeling that I had finally put behind me, but that was it. It felt like the weight of the world was lifted off my shoulders, but the confusion had just only begun.....
And as a result, I took far too long to act. I guess I can't put too much blame on Teagan for setting her brothers up with them, she did what she thought was best for the people she cares about most in life, both her brothers and her non-blood related sisters. She saw the opportunity and she took it, and she was only able to take it because I let it happen. And I really should be happy because she's happy, because her brothers (two very good, very close friends of mine by the way) are happy, and most of all, because those incredibly fine young women are happy. But what about me? I must say it's been one heck of an incredibly bittersweet period of time for me lately. Everyone just seems so happy, and I'm happy that they're happy, but I'm miserable because of it, and that right there is not so happy..... I can't help but sometimes be angry at Teagan and her brothers, and even in some cases the other girls as well for it all. But that's just being overly emotional I guess. I do feel really terrible about it, and I wish things didn't have to be this way so that I couldn't feel this way, and that in turn they couldn't feel that way about me. I guess you can't really blame me for getting that way though, but the reality of it all is that it isn't any of their faults, and they don't deserve to have this anger directed towards them. If anyone deserves to have anyone's brunt of negative feelings thrown at him, it should be me. And without a doubt, if there's anyone in the world who has had by and far the most anger tossed upon them by me, it is most assuredly myself and myself alone.
Which also brings me to my next point: just how much longer is this going to keep happening to me? Why does it seem like every single time I've had reason to believe, it always ends this way? I've probably been told more than any other guy in life that "you're a really nice guy Nate, you're really great, but you're just not the right one for me" or "I really like you a lot, I just don't feel ready to get in a serious relationship with anyone right now." And the worst of that latter is that both times I've been told that, interest has been shown by those particular girls in other guys really not too much longer after them having said that. Which begs the question, am I really just that pathetic? Is every guy out there better for every girl out there than I am? What is it exactly that women just don't seem to like about me? Or am I just the most unlucky, most missfortunate guy in existence and the good lord just doesn't want me to be to be with anyone? Or better yet, why do I fail so epically at life? Why did god make me so stupid and why can't I ever do anything right? I mean you don't just meet people as marvelous as Teagan, Julie and Marie every day. I honestly don't think I ever will meet anyone quite like any of them ever again. Most certainly not anyone as perfect for me as Marie is, that's for sure. I don't know why it is, but for some reason I feel more capable, more extroverted and just all around more compatible with her than I do anyone else I've ever met. I don't think I've ever hit it off with anyone quite like I have with Marie. And I'm not entirely sure that I ever will. And if this is my best and my best apparently isn't good enough, that there's still a guy out there who's better than I am nonetheless, then really, how pathetic am I that I still epically fail nonetheless?
Of course this isn't the only issue I'm being overloaded with right now. Though quite obviously, it is the one I think about the most, that's for sure. Other issues include me taking Calc 1 from an instructor who teaches it in a way that I swear is impossible to understand I thing that's going on, not to mention he is no help at all in giving us adaquite enough assignments to actually practice the math. He has no schedule for it on the syllabus, he has no actual assigned problems, he just says "just do all the odd ones." And it's been very, very difficult for me to practice this stuff via homework as a result. And now I am failing the class pretty badly, and am not sure if I can pull at least a D- or better out of it. Which is very bad for my financial aid standing. Failing the class would be about the same for it as dropping it for a W, only it wouldn't hurt my GPA if I did the latter. And I know I have a very willing tutor to help me with this stuff (she knows who she is ;) ) as she promised earlier in the semester and I am very greatful for that. I just haven't been very willing to ask her to help me is all. Partially out of stubbornness, but also out of the fact that, to tell you the honest truth, I just kind of have this personal issue with actual friends helping me out with homework. It's nothing against anyone or anything, it's just something I kind of have a hard time feeling adaquite with it is all.
Then there's the fact that, as it would seem, Dr. Root feels like he has enough confidence in my capabilities that he thinks I can handle lead trombone in symphonic band. At first that was actually one of the things I felt like was going my way and that I was looking forward to with much anticipation. And most times, I have to say, it is kinda cool and I enjoy it quite a bit. Other times I struggle enough with it and feel burdened enough by it that I wonder why on earth he put me up here instead of Linda or Matt, who are both way better than I am anyways. That solo on Rhapsody in Blue I wish sometimes he'd just pass on to one of those two instead of make me have to deal with it. It's not a hard solo, it's just that he wants it done in a very specific way, and I'm not sure if I can do it the way he wants me to. He's even trying to get me into his office so he can work with me on it, and its not something I particularly want to deal with doing. I guess at least I don't have to run sectionals, which is a plus. But other than that, I just don't know sometimes.......
I guess in the end, all I can really do about any of this is let life run it's natural course, even if it doesn't go the way I want it to. Which is a very, incredibly hard thing to do when you're as concerned with and worried about it all as I am. Mostly just because I want nothing more than for it to turn out the way I want it too. And I honestly can't help but feel like a massive failure at life who can't do anything right if it doesn't. But in the end, it really, honestly is all you can do about it. It's not going to be very easy to do, and it will take a very, very long time. Stuff like this just doesn't go away overnight, especially those said particular feelings, whether they be of love for a certain particular incredible individual or of failure, regret, anger, and lack of appreciation for the self. But, whatever will be will be I guess.
Monday, December 28, 2009
Top 25 favorite albums of the decade.
We had a thread like this in one of the forums I post in, and I decided I'm going to post my list on my blog here. It counts down from 25 to 1 like any good best of list should. 8-) I won't go into detail to describe each of them though, considering there's, you know, 25 of them and all..... ;) Would love to have though, but seeing as how I just barely had the idea of maybe doing what JayGee's doing over on ArizUtaku with the top anime of the decade, it's probably too late for that...... Ah well, maybe I'll go more in depth with them if I can ever get that music thing running on this blog again......
25. Bleed American - Jimmy Eat World (2001)
24. Age of Winters - The Sword (2006)
23. Runnin' Wild - Airbourne (2008)
22. Get Born - Jet (2003)
21. Elephant - The White Stripes (2003)
20. The Black Parade - My Chemical Romance - (2006)
19. Come What(ever) May - Stone Sour (2006)
18. Break the Cycle - Staind (2001)
17. American Idiot - Green Day (2004)
16. Vol. 3 (The Subliminal Verses) - Slipknot (2004)
15. Echoes, Silence, Patience and Grace - Foo Fighters (2007)
14. Stiff Upper Lip - AC/DC (2000)
13. How to Dismantle an Atomic Bomb - U2 (2004)
12. Heathen Chemistry - Oasis (2002)
11. The Sickness - Disturbed (2000)
10. Toxicity - System of a Down (2001)
9. Meteora - Linkin Park (2003)
8. Sonic Firestorm - Dragonforce (2004)
7. Absolution - Muse (2003)
6. Carnavas - Silversun Pickups (2006)
5. Into the Wild Soundtrack - Eddie Vedder (2007)
4. Mer De Nomes - A Perfect Circle (2000)
3. Lost Dogs - Pearl Jam (2003)
2. Lateralus - Tool (2001)
1. Kid A - Radiohead (2000)
25. Bleed American - Jimmy Eat World (2001)
24. Age of Winters - The Sword (2006)
23. Runnin' Wild - Airbourne (2008)
22. Get Born - Jet (2003)
21. Elephant - The White Stripes (2003)
20. The Black Parade - My Chemical Romance - (2006)
19. Come What(ever) May - Stone Sour (2006)
18. Break the Cycle - Staind (2001)
17. American Idiot - Green Day (2004)
16. Vol. 3 (The Subliminal Verses) - Slipknot (2004)
15. Echoes, Silence, Patience and Grace - Foo Fighters (2007)
14. Stiff Upper Lip - AC/DC (2000)
13. How to Dismantle an Atomic Bomb - U2 (2004)
12. Heathen Chemistry - Oasis (2002)
11. The Sickness - Disturbed (2000)
10. Toxicity - System of a Down (2001)
9. Meteora - Linkin Park (2003)
8. Sonic Firestorm - Dragonforce (2004)
7. Absolution - Muse (2003)
6. Carnavas - Silversun Pickups (2006)
5. Into the Wild Soundtrack - Eddie Vedder (2007)
4. Mer De Nomes - A Perfect Circle (2000)
3. Lost Dogs - Pearl Jam (2003)
2. Lateralus - Tool (2001)
1. Kid A - Radiohead (2000)
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
To this be the end of For Your Listening Pleasure. ;_;
Yes Takezo, unfortunately it is indeed true. ;_;
I'll probably try to see if I can make something else of it though. I'm not entirely sure what I'm going to do in place of it, but I really would love to keep on doing it in some way, shape or form anyways.
Sunday, December 13, 2009
A more lighthearted look inside BroEl's head. :)
I mostly got this idea from a friend of mine over on her blog and decided it sounded like not too bad an idea to give some thought too. So let's see if I can actually make this work, heh heh. ^_^'
20 things I love in life (in no particular order):
1. Anime/Manga
2. Graphic Novels
3. Well drawn art
4. Playing in the band
5. Hanging out with band people
6. The band hall
7. Good friends
8. Family
9. Knowing that I'm loved
10. Rock music
11. Music in general
12. Growing my hair out, no matter what length
13. Writing
14. Movies
15. Gaming/RPGing, especially when it's with good friends :)
16. Eating good food
17. Watching a good football or basketball game
18. Sci-Fi/Fantasy type stuff
19. Waisting time on the internet
20. Cute animals! ^_^
Well, at least I tried anyways, heh heh. ^_^'
20 things I love in life (in no particular order):
1. Anime/Manga
2. Graphic Novels
3. Well drawn art
4. Playing in the band
5. Hanging out with band people
6. The band hall
7. Good friends
8. Family
9. Knowing that I'm loved
10. Rock music
11. Music in general
12. Growing my hair out, no matter what length
13. Writing
14. Movies
15. Gaming/RPGing, especially when it's with good friends :)
16. Eating good food
17. Watching a good football or basketball game
18. Sci-Fi/Fantasy type stuff
19. Waisting time on the internet
20. Cute animals! ^_^
Well, at least I tried anyways, heh heh. ^_^'
Thursday, December 10, 2009
Death, doom, distruction and chaos!!! >:-3 Or things of the sort.....
Well it would appear that as of today, my time is no longer occupied by the dread of what we all know of as school. Finals are done, classes ended last week, and for about three and a half weeks I've got nothing to do but go around causing all sorts of trouble!! >:-3 Or at least I'd like to think so anyways......
Other than the obvious holidays I don't really have much on tap for the break, which is pretty typical for most any times I have off of school. Mostly just sleep, messing around on the computer, hanging out with friends when invited to do such, and lots of anime I need to watch. Which is where I suppose I'll start off. Amongst the truckload of anime and manga my friend dumped on my head just before leaving to join the military, a series i've been meaning to watch for some time now called Ergo Proxy is one of them. I've actually had enough time this week to get through about 8 episodes of it so far, and I'm already quite impressed. You'll probably hear more about my thoughts on it over on ArizUtaku sometime after I finish it, and probably even on Facebook with what I've decided is going to be my traditional note on the best of anime for the year. I've also decided to start up on yet another series I've been wanting to watch for some time now via bit torrent download (for now of course, until I decide to purchase it legally) called Planets. From what I've heard of it, it really sounds like something I'd just fall head over heals for. Also on tap, if I have enough time that is, is probably going to be me working on finally seeing past episode one of Eve no Jikan, which should be easy enough considering it's only 6 episodes long at 15 minutes each. Finishing the last 5 episodes of Monster is also something I've been meaning to do for a while now (yeah, my status on that series hasn't changed from the last time I mentioned it in this blog unfortunately.... ;_; ) but we'll see. In some ways, considering it's licensed now, I've actually thought about just finishing it via DVDs or it's airtime on SyFy, but we'll see.
The holiday season is probably going to be one of the more humbling ones this year though. Christmas and New Years is always my favorite holidays/general time of the year, just simply because it's a time which seems to have this really great feeling about it like no other. It's just a really relaxing time of the year where there are all sorts of beautiful decorations and lights, peacful and relaxing music, and just all around good feelings. There are those parts that I don't like about if of course, mostly because this time of year also tends to bring out the worst in people as much as it does bring out the best in them. It's also very stressful to have to go through all the trouble getting all those pretty decorations and lights up, as well as budget out certain finances for the much less important gift giving aspects of it. This year I think I might enjoy more than most years though simply based off the fact that I am going to pretty much have to focus on all those more positive aspects of it that make me love it so much. I unfortunately never have enough money any year of Christmas to get into the more gift giving part of it, which is something I think is such a terrible travesty that I don't get that opportunity very much. But even in the gift recieving department, not quite as important to me as to participate in giving them but still somewhat enjoyable in it's own right, will be very, very humble this year, seeing as how our family is pretty dry on the finances as well. That and I've decided that this year I'm kind of not really seeming nearly as much into the season as I typically tend to be, which has left me not really having much of a desire to go and put up all of our pretty Christmas stuff. Which pretty much means that if I don't do it, it at least will not get put up for a while, and even then we probably won't have any roof lights this year. But as I've said, none of that really matters as much as it sometimes is made out to be believed to be. I always enjoy the part of Christmas that I enjoy so much no matter what, and this year I'll have mostly that to just sit back and enjoy.
So that pretty much wraps most of what my break will be like. Everything else in the life of BroEl is mostly pretty much similar to what I've posted about before, and grades are yet to come out, so I'll probably be around with another post when next semester starts up again to talk more about all of that. But for now I am off to thrive in the grandness of doing absolutely nothing. 8-)
Other than the obvious holidays I don't really have much on tap for the break, which is pretty typical for most any times I have off of school. Mostly just sleep, messing around on the computer, hanging out with friends when invited to do such, and lots of anime I need to watch. Which is where I suppose I'll start off. Amongst the truckload of anime and manga my friend dumped on my head just before leaving to join the military, a series i've been meaning to watch for some time now called Ergo Proxy is one of them. I've actually had enough time this week to get through about 8 episodes of it so far, and I'm already quite impressed. You'll probably hear more about my thoughts on it over on ArizUtaku sometime after I finish it, and probably even on Facebook with what I've decided is going to be my traditional note on the best of anime for the year. I've also decided to start up on yet another series I've been wanting to watch for some time now via bit torrent download (for now of course, until I decide to purchase it legally) called Planets. From what I've heard of it, it really sounds like something I'd just fall head over heals for. Also on tap, if I have enough time that is, is probably going to be me working on finally seeing past episode one of Eve no Jikan, which should be easy enough considering it's only 6 episodes long at 15 minutes each. Finishing the last 5 episodes of Monster is also something I've been meaning to do for a while now (yeah, my status on that series hasn't changed from the last time I mentioned it in this blog unfortunately.... ;_; ) but we'll see. In some ways, considering it's licensed now, I've actually thought about just finishing it via DVDs or it's airtime on SyFy, but we'll see.
The holiday season is probably going to be one of the more humbling ones this year though. Christmas and New Years is always my favorite holidays/general time of the year, just simply because it's a time which seems to have this really great feeling about it like no other. It's just a really relaxing time of the year where there are all sorts of beautiful decorations and lights, peacful and relaxing music, and just all around good feelings. There are those parts that I don't like about if of course, mostly because this time of year also tends to bring out the worst in people as much as it does bring out the best in them. It's also very stressful to have to go through all the trouble getting all those pretty decorations and lights up, as well as budget out certain finances for the much less important gift giving aspects of it. This year I think I might enjoy more than most years though simply based off the fact that I am going to pretty much have to focus on all those more positive aspects of it that make me love it so much. I unfortunately never have enough money any year of Christmas to get into the more gift giving part of it, which is something I think is such a terrible travesty that I don't get that opportunity very much. But even in the gift recieving department, not quite as important to me as to participate in giving them but still somewhat enjoyable in it's own right, will be very, very humble this year, seeing as how our family is pretty dry on the finances as well. That and I've decided that this year I'm kind of not really seeming nearly as much into the season as I typically tend to be, which has left me not really having much of a desire to go and put up all of our pretty Christmas stuff. Which pretty much means that if I don't do it, it at least will not get put up for a while, and even then we probably won't have any roof lights this year. But as I've said, none of that really matters as much as it sometimes is made out to be believed to be. I always enjoy the part of Christmas that I enjoy so much no matter what, and this year I'll have mostly that to just sit back and enjoy.
So that pretty much wraps most of what my break will be like. Everything else in the life of BroEl is mostly pretty much similar to what I've posted about before, and grades are yet to come out, so I'll probably be around with another post when next semester starts up again to talk more about all of that. But for now I am off to thrive in the grandness of doing absolutely nothing. 8-)
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